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| My fairy dancing with her shadow |
Perfectionism
is my bane. I let this site go for a long time without posting because
I couldn't post as regularly as I would've liked. No one said I had to
post daily. No one said I had to post weekly. But all these little
rules that I've set up for myself kept me from doing ANY posting because
I couldn't do it perfectly. So. No more imposing silly little rules.
Instead, I've decided to make this fun. I've decided to PLAY. That
doesn't sound like such a difficult thing, does it? Playing. But it is
for me. So, what does that mean? Well, as far as this blog goes, it
means posting when I get the chance. I couldn't possibly fail at "when I
get the chance", right?
What
else does it mean? Well, it means tinkering with my camera once
again. It means carrying the point-and-shoot around and using it. (Too
bad my DSLR is too bulky) I could get on the bandwagon and do
the instagram thing, but I still forget that I have THAT camera with me
all the time. I use it as a phone, my internet when away from my
computer, my calendar. But as a camera? Someone always has to remind
me that it's there. Maybe I need one of those phone skins that make it look more like a camera. Hmmm... until then, it's point-and-shoot in my purse.
But
more importantly, playing means allowing myself ME time without feeling
guilty about it. Maybe it's my Catholic upbringing. Maybe it's my
Filipino upbringing. It's probably both. Catholics and Filipinos are
experts in guilt, and I've got plenty of that. Anyway, overcoming the
guilt will be quite the challenge. To help me with it, I've decided to
join a group of folks in finding our "beautiful different" with the help
of Karen Walrond. It
all starts today and I'm looking forward to what the future will
bring. I hope that this post will be the beginning of my new adventure
into playfulness, and an end to my guilt.
