Thursday, November 3, 2011

If I could switch lives for one day...

So cuddly by NurseNinja
So cuddly, a photo by NurseNinja on Flickr.

it would be with my dog. After a long day like today, I can only wish that I'd be this comfy in bed tonight. Why did I sign up to write a blog entry every day again?

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

I was ALWAYS there. I was just behind the camera.

At the Greek Festival

Here I've been telling myself that I need to take more pictures, when all along I missed four important words to go with that goal: "with me in them."

I found this article via a photographer friend on how to take family self portraits.  I suffer from two problems: 1. I utterly dislike having my photograph taken, and 2. I enjoy being the one taking the photographs.  Unfortunately, this means that whenever we do something, I'm very rarely in the photographs.  I take the photos to document all the fun things we've done, but years from now, when Audrey looks through those photographs, will she remember that I was there with her?  Even sadder is the fact that after being with Chris for seventeen years, we have few photos together to show for it.  (I'm just glad we "splurged" for the wedding photographer!)  Now I just have to get the tripod out and start bringing my point-and-shoot with us again (I'm not about to hand over my DSLR to a stranger!)

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Another year older. More grateful than ever.

Dr. Who themed cake made by my sister

Yesterday was one of the most memorable birthdays I've had, thanks to my wonderful family.  The hubby, kid, and I spent the day at the lagoons in Ko'olina and then had dinner out with the rest of the family.  It sounds like such a simple day, but it couldn't be more perfect for me.  Well... maybe I could've done without the sunburn.  I did say more grateful, not  wiser. 

Thursday, September 1, 2011

“Ideas can be life-changing. Sometimes all you need to open the door is just one more good idea.” -- Jim Rohn


I don't know what it is about September, but around this time is when I always want to start things over.  Fresh start. New beginning.  Maybe it's because it's my birthday.  *shrug*  All I know is that I've got a ton of ideas, new things to try, old projects to revisit.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

My sister made this Easter cake especially for my daughter.  The cake itself was yummy, but we've been saving the egg itself because it's so cute.  When my sister brought the cake over, she told Audrey that the egg was a dinosaur egg, and that's why it's so much bigger than the bunny.  So when we finally decided to crack into the egg today, Audrey was surprised to see that it was made of rice crispies.  "Where's the dinosaur?!"  Gotta love her.

a closer look

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

To write or not to write. THAT is the question.

image source here

Yesterday was the first day of Beyond Blogging for Scrapbookers.  I got so caught up in looking through people's blogs that I 1) didn't get to write my own entry, and 2) forgot to feed my kid lunch.  Yeah... it was probably a good thing that she was going to be with her grandmother for the rest of the day.  

Quite a few people wrote about how they started blogging and why.  I wrote my own version of it about a year ago and I had to go back and re-read it.  It's fascinating how different my thoughts are now from what they were back then.  Yes, blogging is still a good way for me to "focus", but I wonder how much of that has kept me from writing these past few months.   Could I have written more if I wasn't so busy censoring myself?

I started out blogging as a way to get in touch with some people working through Julia Cameron's The Artist's Way.  Once I felt more comfortable sharing my writing, it became a way to let friends and distant family know what was going on in my family's life.  One thing was certain, I wrote quite sporadically.  Not only would I disappear for indeterminate lengths of time, but I would be full of optimism one minute and doom and gloom the next.  My sister once told me she could tell when I was depressed from reading my entries. That brought me here.  

I originally created this new(er) blog in hopes to stay away from any negativity on my part.  I wasn't quite sure WHAT I would be writing about, but I knew I wanted to focus on the positive.  I was even doing alright for a while until the end of November and the entire month of December.  How could I stay positive after that?  And so I stopped writing.  Again.  I mean, who wants to read about depression?  But now I wonder.  Is it possible to avoid writing about it when I DO suffer from depression?  I STILL want to focus on the positive side of my life.  Surely, I can find something to write about that won't bring everyone down.  If nothing else, I could always post a photograph instead.  So here I am now.  Taking yet another class.  Hoping that it will help me find my online voice.  I know I want to write.  I know I love to read creative and inspiring blogs.  I DON'T want to be a downer.  But could I really still find my voice if I omit a part of myself?  How does one decide what to keep in and what to leave out?  What would you do? 

I guess it's a good thing I've signed up for this class. =)

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Getting back in

IMG_7668 by NurseNinja
IMG_7668, a photo by NurseNinja on Flickr.

As I've mentioned a couple of posts back, I've been a bit stuck.  Lora had a wonderful suggestion of maybe trying NaBloPoMo, but I think I'll take it a little slower.  As tough as I can get with myself, I think that a daily entry may be too much for me to handle at this time.  I would like to attempt it again at some point, though.  Perhaps by this summer?  We'll see.  For now, I've gone a different route.  Another class to try.  

Shimelle is starting  a new class on Monday, and I've decided to join in.  I really enjoyed the previous classes as can be seen by some of my initial posts, so I figured, why not?  It's a good way to get back into blogging, and there isn't the kind of "pressure" I put on myself with NaBloPoMo.  As much as I've fallen behind on some of Shimelle's classes, I love the fact that I can go back to the lessons any time I want to.  In fact, I probably will be revisiting those prompts this upcoming year.  So, here's hoping that Beyond Blogging for Scrapbookers will get the writing juices flowing again.  If nothing else, I suppose I could just post a few more random photos. =)  

I haven't been this excited about posting in a while.  I'm looking forward to it.   

"A weed is but an unloved flower." --Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Tuesday, April 12, 2011


Stuck by NurseNinja
Stuck, a photo by NurseNinja on Flickr.
I've been wanting/itching to get my blogging restarted, but I can't seem to find the words lately. I've got all kinds of topics and ideas, but I just can't seem to get unstuck. I'm hoping that in a month, I'll be posting more regularly.

Saturday, April 2, 2011